my past

yes, after readin marissa's blog, i've realised i dont have a good past at all.
i mean, i never realy laugh
all i do is juz..... sulk....
i dont remember a day that i hav u no, laugh..
i remembered i was kicked out of the house several times cause

1) i didnt do my homework
2) i touched m y sister's sleeve
3) i slept on the floor.. ==

ive even remember i was ALMOST killed by my own maid.. ==
just bcause i dun wanna eat my bread,
she pulled me into the room with a knife and a garbage bag
and she chase me all around juz to put me in the bag and chop me up[tears forms in the eyes]
when i told my mom, my maid started to scold me more
threatened to kill me if i tell my mom again!

somehow, i wan a good life.
i wish something good happen 2 me.
i mean, COME ON!
i wan a good life, startin now.

thinkin of changing my blog's name.
i nid somethin to make me feel... happy?
just thinkin....