lonely

after reading my letters 4rm my long lost nest pals hu arent my pals anymore[i no yr confuse, so m i]. i nvr felt so alone, so lost, so lonely. my family hates me.dey love my sister so much more den me. i cant blive it. i no i'm not the brightest girl, the girl u wanted me to b, i no i let u down n i'm not suit 2 b yr daughter anymore. i'm wondering when wil you put me in an orphanage? or throw me out of the house since im a disgrace to you all. when wil you give up on me? when wil u realise i'm testing you? testing yr patients? i dont care about my so called family anymore. i juz care whats best for me.... and myself.

i no i sound selfish but hu gives a dam? i'm losing more frens den i hav eva imagine. go ahead, point yr fingers at me n say, 'dont be friends with her, she care more of herself den anyone in the world, not even her own parents.'

i dont no what to do. my father isnt rly tokin 2 my mom bcause i dropped class. my dad doesnt lik 2 look at me cause i cause al the comotion in the house. IF U DUN WANNA LOOK AT ME THROW ME IN THE GARBAGE BIN DEN!

pissed of by my family. the more i think, the more i realise, ppl dont understand what i'm tryin 2 go through now. well, i'm off 2 watch utube now. no, not *gasp* porn.. ==