like the title said, its been a long time, since i've post anything in my blog.
mainly its because im lazy and my mom dont let me use the com.
right now, i have nothing to do but to lie on my bed and dream, i would like to use this time to use the com. o.0
first of all, i would like to change my blog name but somehow, i dont know what to change it too.
maybe ill get back to that later.
let me refrase all my life after the fight,
a new kid came to school, name is Christian B.P [dont know his full name, sorry]
everyone[mostly form 1 and 2] went gaga over him.
one particular one dumped her boyfriend just to get close to him.
such an idiot. why cant she just be happy that she has someone who loves her?
it just pisses me off when i see this kind of people.
why cant they be happy for what they have already?
i have nothing to write right now.
anyways, dont take my msn personal msg and name serious,
i mean its not emo or anything
its just what i feeel at the moment. =]
Monday, June 1, 2009
Its Been A Long Time
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Bad Day
i uh, got beating from my 'mother' yesterday just because of one stupid karangan[malay essay]
just because i wrote a crappy essay doesnt mean i'll write it in my PMR essay right?
some people are DARN stupid.
i wrotre it that crappy cause i didnt have time.
and i didnt have time because i was playing like shit.
not my fault right?
so i had to rush!
argh!
i want, no, NEED someone to FREAKING understand my situation here.
got three tight slaps, and was pinched on the cheek and was pushed till i hit my head on the cupboard.
later, my 'mother' went into my room to take all my books away.
in order for her NOT to check my stuff,
i had to tell her where it is.
she took it and she saw a book called,
The Spook's Curse.
she started saying that she's cursed to have a child like me
i yelled and screamed at my sister
at the end of the day,
we all went to bed in tears..
yay! thats how we went to bed last night!!!
whooo...... ==
Monday, March 16, 2009
Bored
going to 1u tomorrow.
i mean it beats staying at home and get scolded for no reason.
i can play
Hey There Delilah
yay!!! ==
not much to say,
but i wish that the FUCKIBNG GAY
will stop RUINING my GODDAMN life!
its worst then ever and here he is
RUINING IT AGAIN!
may God BRING HIM TO HELL!!!
>D
Friday, March 13, 2009
Is Everything Around Me A lie?
yeah, today is Friday the 13th.
my LUCKY day.
but for other people its unlucky...
i decided to go to school today...
huiling kept on asking me to say sorry to marissa
choices..
one is to say sorry and hope things will get better
the other is to
stay like this forever
i chose to say sorry even if i dont really mean it
SHHH!!! dont tell her! =x
now, im on a look out for my goddamn stupid letter.. o.o
nothing to post, really.
not considering to open my blog yet.
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Should I Ignore You or Should I Confront You?
choices..
they mean alot ant yet they are a trap
oh god, i dont know what to do..
ignore or confront?
argh!
even i cant help my damn self!
hann told me that i like to show my anger off in public
kitee told me i pissed her off by repeatin hanns number
what else?
oh right,
tons of people gossips behind my back
now i know i cant trust ANY of them..
i mean ANY!
whats life without friends?
im going to try that now,
note to self,
when you go to school,
dont smile
laugh
or talk unless necessary
Whats The Point Of:
-> making friends
when you know you'll lose more than you make
-> smiling
when you know perfectly well youre unhappy
-> cleaning your room
when you know you will mess it up again
-> crying
when you know they will hurt you over and over again
-> trusting people
when they CANT be trusted
-> eating
whe you know your going to be hungry again
-> making your bed
when you know your going to mess it up at night
-> having babies
when they are nothing but a nuisance to you
-> having a phone
when you know no one is going to call you or text you
-> being alive
when you know live is not worth living
-> being happy
when you know your going to be sad
-> having boyfriends/girlfriends
when you know you'll break up with them
-> studying
when you know you're going to fail in your exams
-> going to school
when you know you'll go there and play instead of studying
-> healing your heart
when you know someone will break it again
-> having a sister/brother
when you know youre going to fight with her
-> having a best friend
when you know it WONT last
-> brushing your teeth
when you know its going to get dirty again
-> having a mirror
when you know everytime you look at it, you'll feel ugly
-> writing your feelings down
when you know people will just ignore it
dont have to act infront of me
like my title said, you dont have to act infront me.
go on say what you wanna say.
i can handle it
this few days,
i cant help myself
and i can help other the people?
wtf?! ==
when i cant help myself,
how can other people help me?
or rather they wanna hear my feelings and go BLABING them out.
hahaha....
i cant even trust my parents.
i just recovered from being depressed a week ago
and now you are tryin to make me feel depressed..
hahahahaa... some friend you are...
why dont you just stab me in the heart and get over with it?
dont you ever act infront of me.
dont. and i mean it..
i have nothing to say
either im disgusted at you or im to depressed.,
either way....
hey, i wonder why dont you just write down my name?
instead of shooting words infront of my face?
go on, tell the whole world who are you writing about!
i dare you
Saturday, March 7, 2009
heavy heart
yeaahhh... after going to some one's blog,
i have a heavy feeling in my heart which add to my miserable life..
no marissa i dont need any comment from you
i know what are you gonna say
''chillax la kim, life's like this. if life isnt hard, whats the meaning of life? i have been through so many things and all i have to do is to face it. i know your going through a hard time but it will past, trust me. dont keep on sayin you hate your life. God gave you life for a purpose. not because he wants to see you suffer."
i think thats it. or maybe more......
i dunno. maybe i wont tell anyone my stuff and let me contain it all in my heart.
my mom is blamed for no reason and so much things has gone through
if you dont want to be my friend.
im fine with that
go on if we arent friends,
i hope you tell jeremy and let him spread it.
i hope you spread it and i'll become every1's number 1 list of hate
i hope your happy right now.
you dont know how hard it is.
its bad enough to lose a friend.
but its worst to lose yr best friend.
im not sure... im not sure if...
nevermind
the thing is
you wouldnt know how lonely i felt now a days.
ahhah ahhah ahhah
i made a mistake of going to yr blog..
Remembering the Reprodution in Rhymes
a message to ZZZ [even though its wastin my time but i hav alot of time to waste]
ok, let me start sayin this.
i know who the hell you are.. dont think that i dont know.
because of you, i dont tell marissa stuff anymore.
because of you, i have second thoughts about her.
because of you, i dont think me and marissa are close anymore.
dont you know how hard it is for me to try and stop it.
stop wastin your time comin to my blog,
knowin how many horrible things i write about you [i admit ok?]
im tryin to say this as nice as i can and not swearin my ass off [oops, i think i juz sweared >D]
i try and try and try to not let people like you RUIN my life but i think i failed.
go ahead, call me a loser
call me a failure
call me anything you like
but dont say that i cant be trusted..
that story you told edward?
yeahh.. its a lie.. ==
the one that you told me that you like huiling and huiyee?
you told edward that you were TESTIN YOUR TRUST IN ME?
yeah, that one.
dont blame on edward.
hes trying to make things right, but hes wrong.
ok, stop changin the subject.
you told edward that your testin your trust in me
such lies you told him
such lies you told everyone.
such terrible terrible lies.
i hope you burn in hell [if there is such place]
i maybe anything else,
but im not the kind that spread people's secret
unless ofcourse you make me VERY pissed..
you know what?
i think your mission is going to complete
the more you provoke me
the more second thoughts i have towards marissa
i hope you'll be there for her when she and i arent friends
instead of trying to please ashley
come on, dont think i dont know your tryin to impress ashley
im not dumb.
i observe.
go ahead.
call me a sohai bitch..
i dont mind, its just words.. rite?
so many things are in my mind and your tryin to make my life miserable
go ahead.
yr doing a VERY good job
i bet your SOOOOO proud of yourself..
give yourself a huge round of applause..
i have wasted enough time writin a shitty letter to you
in the end, i swear/cursed.
thats me.
if you cant stand me,
why dont you come face to face and tell me off?
or what? youre scared i'll tell YOU off???
i shall not write anymore.
goodbye and i hope you trip and fall and break your gay head
Friday, February 27, 2009
the master have spoken
edward[the master] has told me something i haven realised b4..
he said:
why do you insult people and you dont even feel any pity for them. but when they insult you, you feel hurt easily?
i said
its bcause edward, i have no heart at all. i dont really understand other peoples feelings and i dont really care [how heartless of me]
convostation has ended here cause i need to sleep..
its gonna be a long day tomorrow
woohooo... look at all da candy..
lol, me n my sis did this..
my blog
hann told me that my blog is emo..
its so not.. is it? =0
im tryin to find a nicer back ground.. gimmie half an hour....
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after half an hour
i finally found a nice back ground.. =D
titanic
woooooo... after watchin titaninc i cried.. =/
its so sad.... ='[
why must jack die? [hes so HAWT!]
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.......... T^T
sniff
i cried at the part where rose have to leave him to save herself
in the end she climb up from the boat and ran to him
dam sad yet happy.. =]
i cried the part where jack froze and she have to let him go..
omg i think i might bawl again [not]
i cried when 1500 ppl died and only 6 ppl were saved includin rose..
T^T
note to self: do not watch titanic which cause me not to swim again
note to self: do not watch titanic again. i might bawl.. =/
im so sorryy...
im sorry for what ive done to you
you started it first and i just wanted to end my misery
how could you done this to me?
i know im in the wrong
im sorry for rcallin you rude things
i take it back
i miss talking to you
i miss looking at you
everythime i look at you,
i turned away in fustration
and now
look what hav i done?
i completely ignored you
avoided you
and now your not here
i haven been talkin to you for a week or more
i miss yr voice
i miss you alot.
come back.. =/
i admit that i like, no love you more than anything else
i want to hold you in my hands
i hope you forgive me.
im so very sorry,
my w380i sony ericsson phone
ps:its not some one else.. ==
i found my original parents or rather parent.. o.o
yeahh.. i found my mom n dad
or rather my dad/mom.. o.o
confuse? yeah me 2.. =D
wanna no my dad/mom?
=D its......
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KENT!! =D
he hav a virgina..
and cock.. =o
he told me he dfk[da fei kei] himself den he shove up his ass[hes sperm]
n he got pregnent for 2 months.. =D
after 2 months, i came out from his ass.. =0
rhe gave me away after 20 secs.. ==
some mom/dad
he told me he gave me away cause i smelt of his ass.. [gross!]
come on!
w.e babies that came out from their mom asses smelt lik their moms ass!! ==
he gave me to a forster mom.. =/
n shes rly mean 2 me.. D=
dadmy [daddy + mummy = dadmy =D]
gave me away cause im short..
stupid reason aint it? =0
anyways, i 4give him.. >D
the last time i asked him why is he the same class as me for the last 2 yrs
u no wads his answer?
'to take care of u marrr'
thats his answer.
i asked him why did he ponteng skul,
he said cause i did 2.
i said, dats my 2nd time [slams hand at mouth] =x
shit! he 'scolded/lecture' me 4 skippin skul.. =/
stupid dadmy,
i was rockin my chair 2day durin exams,
he reached out n pullled my chair bak..
so high...
he did dat to me a couple time..
stupid..
during science, he kept on takin marissa's handbag that i hang it on my chair
dadmy got my revenge.. >D
pn chan saw n use the green book n whack him >D
sry dadmy...
saw hann lost in chi ku pa.. o.o
hes whole shirt was UNbutton..
LOL!! poor him.. =P
huiling got caught in cheatin in exams.. =/
stupid mariani..
thank god shes nont going 2 b in the school anymore...
muahahaaa.. =D
im so mean n gay! =D
no w8,
justins gay! =D
Saturday, February 21, 2009
what the hell is wrong with the whole world?
wth? i mean wth!?
i went to sum particular blog and that bitch made me pissed!
i mean wth u wanna tell her what did i told u?
some fren u are.
i hav no intension 2 tok 2 u anymore.
how could u do this 2 me?
after all i've told u about???
i thought u were the kind that kips ppl secrets and nvr lettin it out
some how,
i found the hard way...
u tend to tell ppl wad other ppl said.
im nvr i mean NVR going 2 let u no bout anythin else
cn u xplain the awkward moments when im wid u?
the time i nvr rly tok 2 u?
i told u, IM SORRY!
i didnt rly mean 2.
i was pissed at everythin, every1,even myself.
and u! the other 1..
u completely ignored me.
u walked past me without even sayin 'hi' or smile
u treat me lik im a fkin shadow!
i called every1 a bitch. even marissa!
they all no i didnt rly meant it
2 me, bitch is juz a word
a tiny word.
its not lik a call u a whore or anythin. [whores r smexy ;P]
u completely blew me off!
no wonder that day,
u said hi 2 me out of the blue
u think i didnt notice the diff?
i notice, i observe
and the other u
im the kind that tell other ppl stuff
i nvr rly spread!
i told the lim sisters cause u made me rly pissed!
its not my fault i get pissed easily
im tryin 2 control my anger
i even remembered the day i told the twins
the day is on sports day.
u think ive 4gotten?
theres so many times i wished i didnt blew it out
atleast its not lik aarons n marissa's case
they arent mad at me
cause they no its juz a joke!
how could u treat mne like dat?
and u dun even no what is going on!
so seriously, i dun understand anythin else now.
u insulted me many times n i hav 2 put it up
forget bout it
u dunno how many times b4 i sleep,
or when i was studyin
or when i was in the bathroom, tryin 2 4get everything
yr words came into my mind lik a knife stabbed into my heart
i closed my eyes, tryin 2 picture happy stuff
but it seems lik my life is full of sadness
depression
pain
hurt
i tried to remember the times i was happy
not no-in wth is going on in this world
but yr face came in my mind and u said those ugly words
u dunno how hurt i felt
no i dun cry boout all this things,
i get heartbroken
of all ppl,
u make me feel rly sad.
no, i dun hav feelings 4 u..
since when do i,
kimberly too shin wei
likes any1.. ==
im juz hurt.
u try 2 get closer to her
u told her secrets
i try 2 ignore bout that
but it hurts me hearin you say...
u cannot b trusted!
i mean come on!
hl told me her probs, did u think i run around
tellin ppl wad r her problems?
NO! i dont
when ppl nids me,
ill always be there for them
i wont spread.
i asked permission 4rm the owners
i nvr h8 any1 this yr n last [ok fine. not h8 h8 but juz dun lik]
but this yr,
u came along,
havin the same thing wid her
u told her stuff
n to think she's my best fren
r u tryin 2 'steal' her away 4rm me?
i hav no intention 2 say that but still
to me now,
the ppl i toked to bout my feelings is
huiling
hann
kamen
justin
kent
marissa isnt rly makin me feel any better
kamen tried to tok some sense into me
but im juz a thick head
i wouldnt listen 2 any1
hann tried to tell me 2 let go..
i tried u no, very hard
but things still linger in my mind
yr are juz another son of a bitch
i hav wasted my time tokin bout u
i told justin, i dun feel like going anymore
im sorry if i bak out at the very last moment
im sorry....
Saturday, February 14, 2009
a few pictures that represents my feelings
my 1st art. i was confuse at that time.
its called, things with wings. =]
my 2nd picture. wishin i could hav a good family.
its calledthe worm family
my 3rd picture.
handy rainbow
its kinda blur.. o.o
this picture is bcause i felt touched...
rare love.
i was stress..
black and white
i was missing some one.
i feel blue without you
i was depressed. on the grave thingi said:
''here lies kimberly too
the daughter of the too family.
may she rest in peace.''
my depressed moments
i was pissed at everyone at that time and yet i was lazy 2 draw
yin and yan
thats all of my GREAT drawings.. lol..
will draw more after i get more marker pens.. ;]
chiao....
-still thinkin of a blog name-
my past
yes, after readin marissa's blog, i've realised i dont have a good past at all.
i mean, i never realy laugh
all i do is juz..... sulk....
i dont remember a day that i hav u no, laugh..
i remembered i was kicked out of the house several times cause
1) i didnt do my homework
2) i touched m y sister's sleeve
3) i slept on the floor.. ==
ive even remember i was ALMOST killed by my own maid.. ==
just bcause i dun wanna eat my bread,
she pulled me into the room with a knife and a garbage bag
and she chase me all around juz to put me in the bag and chop me up[tears forms in the eyes]
when i told my mom, my maid started to scold me more
threatened to kill me if i tell my mom again!
somehow, i wan a good life.
i wish something good happen 2 me.
i mean, COME ON!
i wan a good life, startin now.
thinkin of changing my blog's name.
i nid somethin to make me feel... happy?
just thinkin....
Friday, February 13, 2009
friday the 13th [jason is after me! =0]
yeah ppl, its FRIDAY THE 13th!!! =0 [girl screams at the back]
so far, my day is alright =]
uhh.... durinn science, we were tokin bout chapter 4.. ==
actually, tchear was tokin bout valentines day..
speakin of valentines day, i realise, scouts members n pbsm arent sellin any valentinne stuff..
stupid fat pengetua >D
bak 2 science, we were all laughinn n listenin 2 tcher tokin bout a girl ALMOST pregnent.. lol
and she said a guy wanted 2 buy condoms.. o.o but the counter told him hes under age. so, the guy turn arounnd and ask pn chan 2 help him buy. she ask buy wad... ''souvenir''
after school, when we were walkinn down stairs, marissa and i had a chat. marissa, me
*looks out and on to the field*i wanna try basket ball. it looks so fun
*laughs* you? basketball? you cant even catch a ball!
*laughs* hey... hey... at least i can try!
*laughs harder, missed a step, tumble down the stairs.. o.o*
omg, kim are you alright?
*breaths heavily* yeahh... note to self, not to laugh while going downstairs.
then the group came, asked me why am i standin dere. told dem i missed a step. they were lik, omg... kim yee blocked the road and there was a traffic jam.. >D
justin kept on pushin me down.. urgin me 2 b quick.. ==
when we reached outside, i saw my mom. jumped down the step >D
kent, me
woah. how did u get down there?
geng eh???
means yr leg is alright la?
nu.. its still weak * walks away*
speakin of cold shoulder. i gav one to jeremy yesterday >D jeremy, me
*waitin for marissa to come*
*saw me and sat opposite*
*looks at him den look at my leg*
so uh... wheres marsie?
dunnno
she dumped you eh?
you no wad? *got up* yeah she did *walks away*
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